Tuesday, May 30, 2006
hey sorry! i forgot the password to the class blog. so i'm posting all the details here.
there are a mainly 2 projects you can participate in: funfair and sale of pass-it-on cards.
1. funfair
when: 18 jun 06(sun) from 9am-6pm
where: SWAMI home (take to sembawang mrt den take a bus there)
what: -you can be one of the 5 volunteers needed to help man the stalls
-or you can set up a games/food/services stall. preferably games stall.
how: in order to set up a stall, you will have to draw up a proposal, latest by this sat, 3 jun
things to include in your proposal
-wat u plan to do
-wat u require
-your cost price
-how much u plan to earn
-how many ppl u will need
-how much funds u require (the home can provide abt $100-200, but all money earnt will be channeled back to the home)
*your proposal may or may not be accepted by the home, so make sure u come up with a good and substantial one
2. sale of cards
when: 15 jul 06(sat), should be a whole day affair
where: i'm not sure. it's supposed to be an island-wide sale. similar to flag-day
*no limit to the number of volunteers. i think they need lots of ppl at the moment
so pls get back to me asap if u're interested in any of the above projects. i need to get back to my fren asap! thanks! :)
Y8:39 PM
Saturday, May 20, 2006
today i visited the blogs of some ppl in our class.
i didn't know nigel had a blog. i realised how little i understand my classmates. i realised how disjointed our class is. it's a class tt has been coercively pieced together, like a jigsaw puzzle tt doesn't fit. i guess i perceived this much earlier, it's just tt i've been avioding this fact and have been unwilling to accept it. until i read those blogs. those words which i share the same sentiments with are laid out before me, and i can no longer not be honest with myself. i must say i am not very happy in my class and i think many others agree with me. and the worst thing is tt the dance studio (ok, college studio) is not a place where i can seek refuge in whenever i want. unlike nanyang. it's like wat ritzley said: he will feel lost without vball. so will i without dance. now u know why all the more i feel so frustrated abt how the chi dance society is being run in hwa chong. oh noo. i dunno why but i suddenly feel like crying. ok, actually i am alr cryin.
i can't believe that almost one and a half years have passed and yet i have hardly spoken to some ppl in class. nigel's right. (i read his super old entry) it's more like having friends and not a class, honestly. yet it's so ironic that we lack class spirit and bonding but we share similar wishes of reverting back to our sec sch days. and since this is not possible, we all can't wait to graduate in order to get out of this cage, where we are pinned down, our movement hindered, and our joy suppressed. i can't wait to be released, can't wait to fly free, away from all this crap, where i can be myself - fully and comfortably.
don't get me wrong. it's not exactly the people who are bad or mean, but some how all of us come together and happen to not be able to click very well. Sometimes i wonder wat i'll be like in another sch. will i end up a different person? will i have better prospects and opportunities in their dance society? will i be able to form very strong bonds with my class and hold these close to my heart? or does the problem just lie with me? is it only me who's the antisocial one? is it only me who feels this way? but no, no. others feel this way too.
i'm confused. i don't know what to think. good nite.
Y11:34 PM
Sunday, May 14, 2006
ah...i've been scolded for not updating :( okok, i noe i've been lazy. it's a wonder how time flies! it's may now and i've not updated in a month.
looking back, quite a number of things have happened since i last blogged, and many are to do with dance. the month of april and early may was a time for concerts - lots of it. i went for 'burn the floor', vj dance nite, hc strings concert, and rj dance nite. i must say after attending the concerts, i was left feeling depressed. and when this feeling of depression sort of wore off, feelings of resentment and anger rose in me. i was resentful of being in hwa chong, where little respect is given to chinese dance. the school also places little emphasis on dance, as we've limited funds. this poor reputation of chi dance is not entirely the fault of the school, but also, i will boldly announce, our teachers. we lack a committed dance tr as well as a tr-in-charge who is willing to push for changes - change of tr, fighting for more funds and a better studio tt can be called a
dance studio and
not a
college studio. a studio that is the very least clean, with rules prohibiting anyone and everyone to step inside with their shoes on. i'm not even asking for a more spacious studio with more mirrors or air-conditioning or a nice parquet floor. i just sincerely hope that one day there will be a place called the dance studio in hwa chong, where the privileged use of the studio goes to the dancers and not anyone, for PE etc, where everyone steps in with their dirty shoes on. i'm sorry if i sound harsh (ok, i'm not that sorry), but it's after this month tt all my discontentment towards hc dance, accumulated since last yr, have culminated to such a pt tt my feelings of indignation are beginning to spill out. i can't seem keep it in any longer. disputes and complaints regarding costumes, the type of dances we're dancing, the type of performances we're performing for, the state of the studio in which we've to hold practices in, the availability of this pathetic studio have been extremely frequent since J1. i think i've to force myself to stop here, before i begin spewing out all the pent up frustration i feel rite now in a curt manner that i will have to be liable for. u can say that i regret joining hwa chong dance, and that the only dance that i find acceptable is our cny 2006 dance. the costume was the only one that to me, was tolerable.
i still can't believe that we're not going to have a dance nite and will never, throughout our stay in hwa chong, when almost every other jc is having, or have had a dance nite, and hc MAD is also holding a dance nite and we're not.
okay, i guess the only thing worth rejoicing about, pertaining to dance, that happened last month was the joining of salsa class with shiyan at studio wu. we've joined one lesson so far, and i think the tr's not bad. she's very pretty, hot and humorous too! :) can't wait for the coming class this fri! alr missed one last fri due to vesak day :(
to all those out there who do not share the same kind of passion i have for dance and are wondering what's the big deal i am making out of this, do pardon me. ignore what i've said, but do not ever scoff at dance. to those who share the same passion as i do, as well as my dancemates, i hope u all understand what i am feeling...
Y6:12 PM
