Sunday, May 14, 2006
ah...i've been scolded for not updating :( okok, i noe i've been lazy. it's a wonder how time flies! it's may now and i've not updated in a month.
looking back, quite a number of things have happened since i last blogged, and many are to do with dance. the month of april and early may was a time for concerts - lots of it. i went for 'burn the floor', vj dance nite, hc strings concert, and rj dance nite. i must say after attending the concerts, i was left feeling depressed. and when this feeling of depression sort of wore off, feelings of resentment and anger rose in me. i was resentful of being in hwa chong, where little respect is given to chinese dance. the school also places little emphasis on dance, as we've limited funds. this poor reputation of chi dance is not entirely the fault of the school, but also, i will boldly announce, our teachers. we lack a committed dance tr as well as a tr-in-charge who is willing to push for changes - change of tr, fighting for more funds and a better studio tt can be called a
dance studio and
not a
college studio. a studio that is the very least clean, with rules prohibiting anyone and everyone to step inside with their shoes on. i'm not even asking for a more spacious studio with more mirrors or air-conditioning or a nice parquet floor. i just sincerely hope that one day there will be a place called the dance studio in hwa chong, where the privileged use of the studio goes to the dancers and not anyone, for PE etc, where everyone steps in with their dirty shoes on. i'm sorry if i sound harsh (ok, i'm not that sorry), but it's after this month tt all my discontentment towards hc dance, accumulated since last yr, have culminated to such a pt tt my feelings of indignation are beginning to spill out. i can't seem keep it in any longer. disputes and complaints regarding costumes, the type of dances we're dancing, the type of performances we're performing for, the state of the studio in which we've to hold practices in, the availability of this pathetic studio have been extremely frequent since J1. i think i've to force myself to stop here, before i begin spewing out all the pent up frustration i feel rite now in a curt manner that i will have to be liable for. u can say that i regret joining hwa chong dance, and that the only dance that i find acceptable is our cny 2006 dance. the costume was the only one that to me, was tolerable.
i still can't believe that we're not going to have a dance nite and will never, throughout our stay in hwa chong, when almost every other jc is having, or have had a dance nite, and hc MAD is also holding a dance nite and we're not.
okay, i guess the only thing worth rejoicing about, pertaining to dance, that happened last month was the joining of salsa class with shiyan at studio wu. we've joined one lesson so far, and i think the tr's not bad. she's very pretty, hot and humorous too! :) can't wait for the coming class this fri! alr missed one last fri due to vesak day :(
to all those out there who do not share the same kind of passion i have for dance and are wondering what's the big deal i am making out of this, do pardon me. ignore what i've said, but do not ever scoff at dance. to those who share the same passion as i do, as well as my dancemates, i hope u all understand what i am feeling...
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